Friday, January 29, 2010

Why, hello there!

For anyone still following along, I know it's been 9 months. I'm making a couple updates to my blog and am deciding if I will keep posting here. Life got really messy and complicated in 2009. I'll just put it simply and say - it sucked. I've learned a lot about life and myself, that's for sure.

I'm not one to focus on the negative though. I'm so very blessed and fortunate to be able to tell you that I've done well health wise with my melanoma diagnosis. I had surgery back in March to remove a big chunk out of my leg and I had a lymph node biopsy. Since the original biopsy of the skin cancer came back as a clark level III (out of 5), I was facing the possibility that the cancer had spread. A few weeks after my surgery, my lymph nodes came back clean, which means that appears for now that the cancer hasn't spread, so I didn't have to go through chemo. All of my follow up appointments have been good so far. I'm planning on getting a PET scan in the next month to follow up on things, but I have no reason to believe anything is wrong. It's just to be sure. I want to be sure.

The kids are doing great. Aidan is now in Kindergarten and showing amazing progress. He makes me laugh every day and he's the sweetest child on earth. I thank God every day for him and that fact that he has some special needs just makes him who he is, and I love him just the way he is. Brigid has excelled in school and loves reading and piano. They're just 2 great little kids.

I hope to keep posting updates and get back here. 2010 is a whole new year and I have a whole new life. My parents are gone, but I still have many great family and friends and I've been shown so much love this year. I have God and my faith that has pulled me through every dark moment these past few years and has been the light that kept me on the right path and has given me hope.

I don't mean to sound overly dramatic, but it's been a bad few years. "Lo, though you walk through the valley of the shadow of death..." I've been in the valley of death and despair, but I don't fear. I truly feel like I'm emerging out of it and I've got a lot to look forward to in life. I don't know what the new year will bring, but no matter what, I'm not alone and I'm not afraid.